i dont care at all if my dad wants to be intimate with someone or get married one day or whatever! he deserves to be happy, and to have someone to take care of him when i go off on my own. but this whole... secrecy and hiding who they are is... not a great look OR a great sign. then to keep it up when i figured it all out, and gaslighting me, as you call it?
of course im not going to like the guy even MORE and think hes up to no good. my old man used to lie to me about junk back home and i thought, with us being here now... we've moved past the whole lying shtick and keeping things from each other. so for him to... fall back into that, and hes doing it because richard is probably MAKING him do it? it. it hurts.
if they wanted to keep everything SOOOOO hush-hushed, they could have told me and just tell me to keep it quiet until they were ready to tell other people or whatever and i would have!
but this whole thing went sooooooo off the rails that now i dont CARE to keep my mouth shut about them. theyve BOTH hurt me, and i shouldnt have to sit here by myself and not be able to tell ANYBODY how im feeling.
i cant talk to my dad about it, its like a broken record with that man. i cant talk to my sister, i cant talk to my brother, or any of my friends. i can only talk to u and THATS because ure not a moron and u shoved all the puzzle pieces together the same way i did.
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i dont care at all if my dad wants to be intimate with someone or get married one day or whatever! he deserves to be happy, and to have someone to take care of him when i go off on my own. but this whole... secrecy and hiding who they are is... not a great look OR a great sign. then to keep it up when i figured it all out, and gaslighting me, as you call it?
of course im not going to like the guy even MORE and think hes up to no good. my old man used to lie to me about junk back home and i thought, with us being here now... we've moved past the whole lying shtick and keeping things from each other. so for him to... fall back into that, and hes doing it because richard is probably MAKING him do it? it. it hurts.
if they wanted to keep everything SOOOOO hush-hushed, they could have told me and just tell me to keep it quiet until they were ready to tell other people or whatever and i would have!
but this whole thing went sooooooo off the rails that now i dont CARE to keep my mouth shut about them. theyve BOTH hurt me, and i shouldnt have to sit here by myself and not be able to tell ANYBODY how im feeling.
i cant talk to my dad about it, its like a broken record with that man. i cant talk to my sister, i cant talk to my brother, or any of my friends. i can only talk to u and THATS because ure not a moron and u shoved all the puzzle pieces together the same way i did.