[ shit, charles says, out loud, at that. shit, he says again, when jinx continues to talk about her sister — and he doesn't doubt there's more to the story, that the narrative he is getting is not necessarily entirely reliable... and yet, he understands her pain. ]
i can't say i get it entirely, cause i'm not in this situation and you are... but no matter what anyone says, you've got the right to be sad about this. or angry, or whatever else you're feeling.
and if you think the right thing for you is to leave first, then it is.
i can't promise anything for any of them... but i can promise i'm not gonna hurt you, jinx. or leave you. i know it's not the same, i'm not your family, but-
for what it's worth, you matter to me. a lot. and i'm gonna support you, whether you wanna leave and get your own place, or punch your dad or your sister in the face, or go and throw some grenades at some trees, or whatever.
why? because i like you. because you cared when you didn't have to. because it wasn't anyone, was it? it was you.
and you shelter cats, and wanted to make the mom cat feel comfortable, and you're fun to hang out with, and you've been hurt by both your sister and your dad and you still love them both more than anything.
just cause you can't see your good sides doesn't mean they're not there, jinx. and i'm your friend and i care about you, whether you get the why or not.
[well, if the pause felt too long before, this particular time might have felt like hours had went by (in her prospective). and she isn't too sure what to really say to charles' message, either. sure, he isn't the first who had said something like this to her, and he will definitely not be the last.
but these are words jinx still, even being here for a year, are not used to hearing or reading. sometimes she wonders if she ever will. she knows her father loves her, he proven that for years, and with vi, their sisterhood had been steadily repairing all thanks to this place. there's love ekko had expressed for her, too — something she is missing every day.
but like with everything else, things do come into an end. love can wither and die like roses, or people can lose interest on their once beloved hobbies and even people. this is.... no expection, right?]
[ it does feel longer for him, too, this pause — but it's fine. she can take all the time she wants.
and in the end, his initial answer doesn't come as a text; it comes as audio, his delighted, fond laughter filtering into her device, almost like he's meant to try and type a response and has dissolved into giggles and pressed send for the audio by accident. ]
good. im glad u found someone who u can belong to.
[it's a bittersweet comment. she is happy for him, really, and although she wishes her sister and her father would find better people to belong to... if they feel they are the one, then. well. all she can do is try to accept it. maybe. possibly.
if only her other half was still around. but she knows ekko is the leader of his firelights, and they need him. possibly way more than she needs him. jinx is strong enough to stand on her two feet without the light of her life, but... that doesn't make it easy.]
[ and perhaps it is the honesty she affords him, here, that makes him ask, ] you wanna talk about yours? i mean, i get it if you don't want to, but. if you do, i'm happy to listen, yeah?
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i can't say i get it entirely, cause i'm not in this situation and you are... but no matter what anyone says, you've got the right to be sad about this. or angry, or whatever else you're feeling.
and if you think the right thing for you is to leave first, then it is.
i can't promise anything for any of them... but i can promise i'm not gonna hurt you, jinx. or leave you. i know it's not the same, i'm not your family, but-
for what it's worth, you matter to me. a lot. and i'm gonna support you, whether you wanna leave and get your own place, or punch your dad or your sister in the face, or go and throw some grenades at some trees, or whatever.
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why? i get ure part of my crew, but. all i did was sat there while u died. and after that, i *did* save ur ass, but anyone could have done that.
how am i mattering that much to u?
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and you shelter cats, and wanted to make the mom cat feel comfortable, and you're fun to hang out with, and you've been hurt by both your sister and your dad and you still love them both more than anything.
just cause you can't see your good sides doesn't mean they're not there, jinx. and i'm your friend and i care about you, whether you get the why or not.
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but these are words jinx still, even being here for a year, are not used to hearing or reading. sometimes she wonders if she ever will. she knows her father loves her, he proven that for years, and with vi, their sisterhood had been steadily repairing all thanks to this place. there's love ekko had expressed for her, too — something she is missing every day.
but like with everything else, things do come into an end. love can wither and die like roses, or people can lose interest on their once beloved hobbies and even people. this is.... no expection, right?]
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and in the end, his initial answer doesn't come as a text; it comes as audio, his delighted, fond laughter filtering into her device, almost like he's meant to try and type a response and has dissolved into giggles and pressed send for the audio by accident. ]
sorry, sorry
i know you hate mushy stuff
send me the cleaning fee
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uh
well, i already owe you 7 coins for mushy stuff, i'm not sure i wanna owe you more
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you did ask
but i'll condense it for your sake. so
it's perfect, thanks for asking. he's perfect
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[it's a bittersweet comment. she is happy for him, really, and although she wishes her sister and her father would find better people to belong to... if they feel they are the one, then. well. all she can do is try to accept it. maybe. possibly.
if only her other half was still around. but she knows ekko is the leader of his firelights, and they need him. possibly way more than she needs him. jinx is strong enough to stand on her two feet without the light of her life, but... that doesn't make it easy.]
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[ and perhaps it is the honesty she affords him, here, that makes him ask, ] you wanna talk about yours? i mean, i get it if you don't want to, but. if you do, i'm happy to listen, yeah?
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the romance stuff is not my style.
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involved with
so i was just thinking... well. it's cool if you don't wanna talk about them, but if you do, i'm here.
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to be honest, i don't know what i'd do if... yeah.
cw: talk of death and dying ):
either someone gets in my way and talks me out of it or itll backfire and hurts or kills them instead.
even in this screwed up simulation, i cant seem to die. it wont let me.
its my curse for being born, i guess. i get to watch everyone else leave me.
jinx :c
death's not some kind of relief, jinx. it's not an answer, either.
as for everyone leaving... call me an optimist, but i can't believe that'd be your fate, you know? no one's meant to be alone.
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but here? no. you don't have to be alone here. you just don't. i won't accept that.
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ghosty funeral.
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but regardless, i don't really give a damn
i can't speak for anyone else but as long as i'm here you're never gonna be alone
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