charles rowland, bisexual disaster 🌈™ (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
incorrigibles) wrote2024-07-01 08:29 pm
incorrigibles) wrote2024-07-01 08:29 pm
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[ but when she speaks of what she's learned... well, he can't help but think back to their conversation, to him saying pretty much the same thing to her then. and it's a great thing, if she's finally learned that for herself. ]
i'm chuffed that you think so. think that's really it... when you really care about someone, all you want is for them to be happy, yeah?
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and besides, i need to make room for the NEXT headache coming through. and THATS avoiding my ex-boyfriend #2.
except i jinxed up and kissed him without thinking, and now he keeps searching for me like a lost puppy needing a home.
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uh, at the risk of sounding stupid... why'd you wanna avoid him? if you kissed him it means you care, and if he's looking for you, then HE cares, too
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but u know *how* many times this simulation brought him here? this is his 3rd visit. he doesnt remember his very 1st, and it took him a month to remember his 2nd.
hes just going to bail again, and who knows when he gets dragged in the 4th time if he'll remember anything. why set myself up for disaster?
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right, so... you do care, and he does care, but you're not with him to spare yourself the pain if he does go back again?
look, i get it, i really do. but the thing is, you're not exactly not in pain right now, either, are you? yeah, it might hurt if he goes back. but aren't you hurting both of you right now?
isn't being able to be happy, make the most of the time you have right now, right here... isn't that worth it?
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but isn't that his decision to make?
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look, i tried to do the whole "what if i just don't tell him anything" thing, yeah? in case he went home, in case it hurt too much. and then i realised that what hurt far worse was the thought he'd have been here and not have any idea how much he means to me
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... i do miss him.
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just, start slow? like, talk to him. hang out with him for a bit. and if he's still alive and kicking in two or three weeks, then think about it again?
i just want you to be happy, jinx. and it sounds like you could be, with him
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he does make me laugh. hes the biggest dork i know, and fun to pick on. ekko and i have been enemies for years, so he knows me inside and out, and i know him inside and out.
we had to know each other's everything for combat reasons and all. but now? it feels deeper. him knowing what im thinking, what im feeling, or what im about to do seconds before i do it. he always knows whats coming. he was one of the firsts who knew how to handle me. not many can or. know what to do with me.
probaaabbbly sounds weird to everyone else, but...its this unique thing we got going. and it feels good.
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so... don't lose it, yeah?
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are u like that with ur stud?
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but i guess we're sort of getting there. we don't have years of fighting each other to build on, you know? just what we've got here. but he gets me, and i get him, and we're both trying to be better for each other.
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